Letting go of our children is so hard…
Full of so many mixed emotions.
I’ve been dreading this time.
This past year has been hard, knowing it was coming.
But I’ve been ignoring it all Summer. We had high school graduation and I put it out of my mind that we would one day soon be dropping her off at college, leaving her there, and saying good bye.
I really did not want the day to come when I had to let go.
I heard this in a movie, the mother says to her grown daughter ‘you have no idea what it feels like to have you for 18 years and then it goes away. That’s it. You were mine and now your not. ‘ Of course it made me cry like a baby but it’s so true.
How do we as mothers go from having our little ones, holding them tight, being with us 24/7, doing everything for them to letting go? “The past 18 + years I’ve been her mother, waiting everyday for her to come home off the bus, driving the kids to sports activities, doing fund-raisers, and just being a mom. Now who am I? What am I supposed to do? How do we trust, have faith and let go?”
Nothing can prepare you for this.
I can still remember the feeling 18years ago finding out I was pregnant, to carrying her and then giving birth. I had no idea what I was doing, I was nervous, scared of the unknown, yet full of excitement and so much love.
This is exactly how I am feeling now but I’m not facing holding her in my arms, cuddles at night, waking up to her sweet face, or those little hands reaching for me.
No the same set of emotions are because I have to let her go…
Just as there was no book or anything to prepare us to be a Mom. There is nothing that can prepare us to let them go, to spread their wings and fly on their own now.
For 18 years they are ours and then like that they are not.
Where have the years gone?
I know it’s a normal part of life and I am aware of all the positive and exciting things about her going off to college. New adventures, she’s starting her life and it’s exciting!!
But this transition in life is not easy.
I want to keep my baby to myself, I want to keep her safe! I know it’s selfish of me and I know I will get over this but it’s one hell of an emotional roller coaster.
As we embark on a new chapter of our lives I have no idea how it will unfold but just like any good story, I am on the edge of my seat!!! With my tissue in hand!
How do you all handle the emotional roller coaster of letting go?
What do you do with you during this transition?
How do you help them make this big transition and give them their space but still be there for them without being too much?
With Love, Mara xo