Mine is a mom’s story as she transitions through life with teenagers, writing new pages & chapters to her story
I feel like our lives are like a storybook. Each day we write a new page of our book, each year is a new chapter. Sometime we know exactly how the story will play out and other times we have no idea what is going to be written. Everybody’s story is so different and unique to them only. Our stories are full of joy, happiness, sadness, drama, adventure, fairytales, sorrow, happy endings, laughter, tears, fears, and blessings.
We are creating the story and writing the pages that fill the chapters as we go. None of us know how many chapters are book will hold because we have no idea how long we will live.
Life is so short and the story will be over before we know it. It is so important for us to live our life as we were created to live it; full of beauty, abundance, joy and happiness. Make each day count, write your own pages and make your story worth reading.
I feel like I am writing new chapters of my life and the story is changing! But I’m almost half way through my book so I need to make the rest of it count, I want it to matter. I’m excited to write the rest of the story.
We are the authors of our own lives
This idea of my life being written like a story; each day a new page, each year a new chapter was quite the realization for me because I realized that mine is already almost half way over.
What? How did I get to this point, where have the years gone?
It’s a strange realization to say the least. An awareness that my life is almost half over.
I do not like to be negative so it bothers me to make that statement I would rather say something like “I have so much life to live” or “I have so many more pages & chapters to be written, I am going to make them exciting, happy, full of blessings, and dreams coming true.”
So I’m not trying to be a downer by saying my life is half over, but it’s kind of a fact. I’m 38 years old, if I live to be 76 I’m at the half way point. Now I really want to live longer than that but I’m trying to make a point here!!
I think when we get older and look at our age as a number we can do it in one of two ways;
We can be sad & depressed: I’m too old to do anything else, I’ve already lived the best part of my life, I always wanted to do _______ but it’s too late, etc.
We can be grateful for the life we’ve lived and be happy & excited for what else is yet to come. We can say: I am so excited to see what I can do and what I can fill the rest of my pages with; I’m so happy and I know that the rest of my story will be incredible; I know I am ____ (fill in the blank) age but I always wanted to do______ and I ‘m going to do it because I don’t want to be on my deathbed and standing around me are all of my dreams asking me why I didn’t follow them, I don’t want to have any regrets; my life is a journey and I still have life left in me, I still have time, it’s going to be a beautiful ride!!
I choose the 2nd option!
For me it’s such a bittersweet time. The first half of my life has given me so many blessings, more than I ever could have imagined! 20 years ago I didn’t even know enough to dream this life, I am truly grateful. The past 18 years of my life have been all about being Mommy, and now just Mom! (I know you moms will know what I mean by the difference! It’s a significant change that shows are babies are growing up)
I will always be mom. But I know that my life is changing. My girls have become teenagers. One will be off to college next year. My life went from being mom full time to a mom who isn’t quite needed as much anymore. It’s like we are here just on standby, sometimes our teenagers need us so much and other times they want nothing to do with us. So you see at this point I’m trying to figure out what does a ‘Mom’ write her story about now when it’s not about being mom anymore and there is no one around to be mom to; when they are turning 16 and driving, getting boyfriends, off to college, etc.
I guess I can’t write my story about how I follow them to college!!
So what the hell do I do with myself for the next half of my life when I’ve been mom for all of these years?
That’s why I created this blog, to help me with this transition in life and I know there are other moms out there feeling the same way in life.
What will our stories say, what will our pages be written about now, how will we fill the chapters when so much is changing?
I said it was bittersweet because one part of me is sad to see them grow up and longs at times to hold them in my arms.
It’s going to be hard to let go, when the only thing I want to do is hold on tight.
But another part of me is excited. There are so many possibilities. The blank pages are sitting and ready to be written and I can write them any way I want. I have big dreams and ideas. It’s like things inside of me are starting to awaken that have been asleep for so long because my focus was my girls and now that’s changing. Passions I didn’t even know I had. Desires that wake me up in the morning. Even being here writing this is a huge change; I am stepping out of my comfort zone and 6 mos. ago I would have said there is no way I could share anything about myself, I’m too shy and I am not a writer.
I feel excited about the changes, excited to tackle my self-doubts, and excited to live my unlived life.
I’m excited to help my girls make their dreams come true and live a happy, fulfilled life.
I know the rest of my story is going to be amazing.
It’s a time for me to figure me out so that I can create my amazing story. I’ve given everything I’ve had to my family and my girls and now it’s time for me to take time to figure out what makes me happy, what do I want to do, how do I want to fill these pages. And I don’t mean this in a selfish way, I just mean it in a way that it was all about being mom but I know very soon that my pages will be laying here blank and if I don’t do something now I will have nothing to write about.
Does that make sense?
We have ‘so much life to live’ in the next chapters of our life!
It’s up to us, we are the creators & the authors. We need to decide how we want our life to be and make it happen.
It doesn’t matter where you are in life or what age you are, you can always change the story, re-write the pages, and create new chapters.
Where are you in your story? What do you want your book to say? What kind of story do you want to tell?
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